My Christmas wishes

All I want for Christmas is for you to be safe, clean & healthy, no more rehabs, no more courts, no more institutions or probation, no more worry and fears, no more tears and heartache. All I want is for you to see. See how amazing you are and decide to fight for your life, as hard as we are all fighting for it. I want my family back, all of it. I want to sleep, breathe and live again. I want to laugh and feel joy without that dark cloud of fear over my head. 

I wish for peace, for my family and yours,

Merry Christmas. 

Food for thought

"If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking." Buddhist Proverb

Once I could have said that my son would take 2 steps forward and 10 steps back, never actually moving forward. Today I can say that I believe he is taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back. He is slowly making progress, slowly inching his way forward. I see this for the miracle that it is. I am grateful for these baby steps. 

One day at a time. One foot in front in the other. Failure is not falling down, it is refusing to get up.