Today.....good....very good

Oh how I wait to be able to say that life is good, and when it feels good, it can be hard to relax and truly enjoy that feeling. Not today. Today I am letting go of fear and worry and I am choosing to bask in the beauty and the joy of my life. 

My son was very sick over this past few weeks and is finally feeling better. That illness may have been the very best thing that has ever happened to him, to us. 

He has stopped using hard drugs. That's right STOPPED using hard drugs!! He has chosen to stop using hard drugs because HE WANTS TO STOP. I can't even believe this is my life right now. I have prayed and prayed and begged for this for so long! He agreed to see our doctor to get a prescription for anti anxiety meds and something for sleep and give it an honest try. What a difference I see in him. He is the amazing, interesting, funny and passionate person I have always known him to be. When I talk to him, I am talking to my boy. 

Wow! Do you think I am not terrified that this could end? You better believe I am terrified. Am I going to let fear take this from me? Not a chance in hell! I will enjoy every single beautiful moment. Everyone sees it, it is truly a gift, a true miracle. Just when I thought I might actually lose him to his addiction, life can turn around. This is the world of addiction and recovery. 

I look at my son who, at the moment, has a grade 9 education at 17, he doesn't have a job nor does he live at home, but I have never felt more proud, more hopeful. Today is a good day.....a very good day!